I think I might like you

I think I might like you.
That's what I told you. Not because I was afraid of rejection,
But because it was the truth.
And when it comes to love
I always try to be truthful. (I learnt the hard way)

I think I might like you.
But it might not matter either way
If you do not like me.
Maybe I would save myself the big headache of trying unravel the secrets of my heart
By forcing you to make the decision first.
Because I was sure
(Not completely, but largely)
That you were at least as uncertain as I.

I think I might like you.
But the timing between us is never right.
Because when I am inclined towards the answer being yes,
You are inclined towards the answer being no.
And if you have ever thought the answer to be yes,
I must have been looking elsewhere.

I think I might like you.
It almost sounds like a game.
But I don't like games.
So I think I'll force you to win, and kill me off.
The game must end for me to play another.

I think I might have liked you.
I honestly still don't know.
But it's fine
Because while I am uncertain of my feelings,
I am now certain
Just as you probably were
That we would have been absolutely,
Completely,
In every way,
Terrible
For each other.
Still
I think I might like you.
You, who knew me,
And yet still smiled at me,
I'll keep you as
A precious part of the past.

My First Friend

I never got the chance to properly say this.
Thank you for being my first friend.

The me, who at the age of 13, still knew nothing about friendship...
Saw you, who told me to smile
And knew, that you were someone I could trust with all my heart.
And so I threw aside all my awkward attempts, insecure smiles and uneasy pursuits...
To simply follow you.

You taught me what to give in a friendship
When I only knew how to receive.
You taught me not to judge,
Because the you that I looked down on as being innocent and naive, was so much better than me in so many ways.
You led the way and I followed
And wherever we ended up, I was assured knowing I wouldn't be alone.
For the first time in my life.

Thank you for being my first friend.